Thursday, August 21, 2008

six months...

To say that so much has changed in six months is probably an understatement. Six months ago today, my world was turned completely upside down. Six months ago, I lost my sweet Jonathan. At times, that six months seems like just yesterday. At others, it seems like years. This week has been a little difficult. Six months is a big milestone. But we have a bigger milestone to come on Sunday. Andrew's first birthday. Wow. This past year has been full of all the emotions. Some of the happiest, some of the saddest. But as I write this, my heart is being comforted by my everloving God, my Comforter. How wonderful it is to know that He is in and above all things. The words of MercyMe's song "Bring the Rain" say it so much better than I ever could.

I can count a million times
People asking me how I
Can praise You with all that I’ve gone through
The question just amazes me
Can circumstances possibly
Change who I forever am in You
Maybe since my life was changed
Long before these rainy days
It’s never really ever crossed my mind
To turn my back on you oh Lord
My only shelter from the storms
But instead I draw closer through these times
So I pray
Bring me joy, bring me peace
Bring the chance to be free
Bring me anything that brings You glory
And I know
There’ll be days
When this life brings me pain
But if that’s what it takes to praise You
Jesus Bring the Rain
I am Yours regardless of
The clouds that may loom above
Because You are much greater than my pain
You who made a way for me
By suffering Your destiny
So tell me what’s a little rain
So I pray
Bring me joy, bring me peace
Bring the chance to be free
Bring me anything that brings You glory
And I know
There’ll be days
When this life brings me pain
But if that’s what it takes to praise You
Jesus Bring the Rain
Holy, Holy, Holy
Holy, Holy, Holy
Is the Lord God Almighty
Is the Lord God Almighty
Written by MercyMe

8 comments:

Leslie said...

Well said. I am proud of you and praying for you.

Marksberry Family said...

We admire your amazing strength.
Hope Andrew has a fun birthday!

Anonymous said...

Sarah,
God's grace is so amazing. We're so thankful that He has blessed you with peace and abundant strength to face each new day. Looking forward to Andrew's
1st Birthday party!
Hugs to you & Andrew from the Beard Family!

Anonymous said...

amazing. kelly

p.s.we can't come to andrew's party....the famous canoe trip

Rachel, Andy, Christopher, and Kaela said...

Sarah,
Your faith is inspiring and encouraging. Thanks for being so vulnerable and honest. Your post and the song were really uplifting for me this morning - thanks for sharing. You are in my thoughts and prayers. Hope you have a wonderful weekend and fun b-day party!

Anonymous said...

May God bless you and may these words bring you comfort as it did for my family in a time of need.

"Letter From Heaven" - By Ruth Ann Mahaffey

To my dearest family, some things I'd like to say...but first of all, to let you know, that I arrived okay. I'm writing this from heaven. Here I dwell with God above. Here, there's no more tears of sadness; here is just eternal love.

Please do not be unhappy just because I'm out of sight. Remember that I'm with you every morning, noon and night. That day I had to leave you when my life on earth was through, God picked me up and hugged me and He said, "I welcome you."

It's good to have you back again: you were missed while you were gone.

As for your dearest family, they'll be here later on. I need you here badly; you're part of my plan. There's so much that we have to do, to help our mortal man.

God gave me a list of things, that he wished for me to do. And foremost on the list, was to watch and care for you. And when you lie in bed at night, the day's chores put to flight. God and I are closest to you... in the middle of the night.

When you think of my life on earth, and all those loving years because you are only human, they are bound to bring you tears. But do not be afraid to cry; it does relieve the pain. Remember there would be no flowers, unless there was some rain.

I wish that I could tell you all that God has planned. But if I were to tell you, you wouldn't understand. But one thing is for certain, though my life on earth is o'er. I'm closer to you now, than I ever was before.

There are many rocky roads ahead of you and many hills to climb; but together we can do it by taking one day at a time. It was always my philosophy and I'd like it for you too...
that as you give unto the world, the world will give to you.

If you can help somebody who's in sorrow and pain, then you can say to god at night..."My day was not in vain." And now I am contented... that my life has been worthwhile, knowing as I passed along the way, I made somebody smile.

So if you meet somebody who is sad and feeling low, just lend a hand to pick him up, as on your way you go. When your walking down the street, and you've got me on your mind;

I'm walking in you footsteps only half a step behind.

And when it's time for you to go... from that body to be free, remember your not going... you're coming here to me.

glory said...

Sarah, only being with you for a few hours a week has changed my life. Not the therapy, but the joy of being in the presence of somebody so completely given to God. You have inspired and challenged me. I know God has wonderful plans for you and Andrew. He is especially fond of you. Glory

Anonymous said...

Sarah,
God is truly walking daily close to you and you give Him glory each time you speak. Thanks for your wonderful inspiration!

I love you lots
Nora